I never expected to say this so soon after having Maddison but.. I'm feeling ridiculously broody?! "But you already have a baby?!" I hear you say, I know! But for some reason I just can't stop thinking about the next one!! Obviously I'm not wishing time away with Maddison, I love and adore her more than I ever could have imagined! I am making the most of every second of every day, because time goes just way too fast! I still can't believe she's 4 months old already. But there is just something so so incredible about having a teeny tiny newborn curled in your arms!! You know what I mean? Please say you have this feeling too?!
Whenever I'm not with Maddie and I see another baby, my heart just jumps and I want another! Or if I'm with friends and hold one of their babies, I want another! Watching "One born every minute" (which I have been obsessed with since being pregnant!) Makes me want to have the whole experience again! I find myself everyday saying something to Josh along the lines of "when I'm next pregnant.." or "when we have our next..", "If we have another girl, do you like this name?" or "oh I must save that ready for the next baby!" etc. etc.... I must sound like some baby obsessed lady! Like one of those crazy cat ladies, except with babies haha!
I often think to myself.. is this normal? Is it usual for women to get sooo unbelievably broody after having a baby?! I just enjoy every single minute of every day with Maddison, every tear, every poo.. it's all worth it! I also feel because I was lucky in having a fairly straight forward pregnancy and labour, it is another reason why I am so keen to have another baby already. Well I say that.. but I think my judgement and memory of being pregnant is clouded because all I can see is my beautiful little girl sat in front of me! I was horrifically sick.. incredibly uncomfortable and large.. awful hip pain.. and my labour was lonngggg!!! As my mum would say, "I'm looking through rose tinted specticals!!" But none of that seems to matter. My experience was definitely not traumatic enough to put me off. I'd totally do it all again to have another little squishy!!
Josh and I have always had a rough plan of when we'd like to have another. We would ideally love around a 3 year gap between Maddison and a second baby. For us personally, we always said we really don't want to do the whole "two-under-two" thing. I know it works for some.. but I always said I wanted Maddie walking around before having another - the thought of having to carry around two babies just seems like a lot of work! Plus the thought of having to re-buy everything because Maddison's not quite outgrown her carseat or cot. I think that makes Josh panic because you can literally see the pound signs pilling up in his eyes haha!! Now I have Maddison though, 3 years feels soooooo far away!! I honestly would get pregnant again now if I could! (In other words... if Josh would let me haha!) I definitely don't want any longer than 3 years though. My sisters and I are so so close and I'd love for my children to have that lovely close relationships.
Another (sensible) reason why we wanted to have a 3 year gap, is because I really wanted to give my body time to fully recover before going through pregnancy again. It is such an amazing but straining and tough journey on the female body.. it takes 9 months of stretching and changing to grow a baba, so you can't expect to feel recovered after a matter of weeks!! I know that is the sensible thing to do.. but my head and my heart are having a completely different conversation right now!
I guess my question is.. how long did you wait till you had your second baby? Was it planned or did it just happen? Please say you got this broody too to make me feel better about this feeling?!
Lot of love! x
This section will all be focused on being pregnant, discovering motherhood and baby bits!