The waiting game.. This. Is. Tedious!!! Everyday another message from friends or family, "have you had that baby yet?!" No. You'd know if I had haha! Everyday I'm jumping with excitement at any sort of twinge or cramping sensation. Everyday I wake up thinking, today could be the day! To then go to bed thinking... Ah well!
It is hard not to get jealous of seeing people with their babies already. I do so desperately want to meet my little girl!! I think what has made it even harder is the heat wave we've had in the UK for the past 4/5 days! 30+ degrees when you're VERY heavily pregnant is so so hard! It's made me cry, snap, swell, sweat constantly and just flake out on the sofa with my electric fan constantly on my face!! (Wow I bet I've looked such a state - poor Josh ha!!) Other than venturing out to see the midwife yesterday I have literally stayed indoors, with the curtains firmly shut to keep the sun out and every single window open trying to find any sort of breeze to cool me off! (Again, thank god for my fan!)
Speaking of the midwife, yesterday I had the glorious experience of a "Stretch and Sweep". In all honestly, I was expecting it to be a lot worse! I think I'd geared myself up for something a million times more horrifying by reading too much info and forums online that people had written about it! (Note to self: I really should learn not to google so much!) I came away from my appointment completely mixed and torn up emotionally! It was promising, my midwife told me baby girl is fully engaged (as she could feel her head!), my cervix is nice and ripe, but not dilated yet. I've been getting tons of period type cramps on and off throughout the day for maybe the past 4 days now... which is said is a good sign things are 'happening'. So I'm really hoping when I have my next sweep in a few days I'll be further along and it will kick start labour for me - wahoo!! But if not... we do have an induction booked!
Personally, I'm not fussed by the idea of induction. If my body needs a little helping hand to get this baby out (seeing as she's all good to go), then I'll take it! I know all the pros and cons, the potential risks etc. I don't think there's any information out there left that I haven't read!! But unfortunately some of us just need that little helping hand in giving our babies their eviction notice!!! I know some women prefer to wait and let their body go into labour naturally, which is totally fine - I applaud your patience and commitment to doing everything as naturally as possible!! However I'm not one of them!
I had already decided from the day I knew I was pregnant about what I "ideally" wanted in my birth plan. (And I say "ideally" as it's likely my birth plan may have to change, this baba's gonna come however she needs to and unfortunately that's something out of my control!) I knew from day 1 that I wanted an Epidural. Again, yes I know the pros and cons, but I also know what I'm personally like with pain. I suffer with really bad anxiety and panic at certain situations that are out of my control, so having pain relief to keep me and my baby relaxed and as calm as possible and not distressed, is the way forward for me!! Obviously as said above, I may have a labour that moves fast and there simply isn't time for an anaesthetist to loop me up before I have to push! In which case, gas and air (and whatever painkillers I can have) will have to do!! But "ideally" I know I want an epidural and I have no shame in saying that I need pain relief!
I have felt from talking to some people (mainly elder women I might add - Maybe it's a generation thing?), there's a lot of pressure, almost like an expectation, for women to do everything as natural as possible! I don't get why some people have to be so judgemental? Or look down on you like you're a wimp or going to be a bad mother? The same way no women's body is the same, no women's labour experience will be the same?! Everyone copes with situations/pain differently and everyone should be entitled to decide what's best for them and their baby, without the feeling of being pressurised into what another person believes is "best". If someone needs pain relief.. good for you! If someone does it 100% naturally.. good for you! Ladies, I think by now you know your own body so you do whatever is best for YOU!
I guess when the day comes, what is meant to be, will be! It might be that my body naturally goes into labour or I need to be induced. The ONLY thing I care about is that my baby is safe and healthy! And I will do whatever is recommended by the professionals to make sure of it! As tedious and frustrating as it is waiting, it's not like it's never going to happen! One way or another this babies coming hehe! (This is what I need to keep reminding myself when I do see other women with their babies already!) I'm coping much better today as the weather is cooler, so it's more comfortable and easier to stay stay relaxed, as well as trying to be as positive as I possibly can be! Oh, and now my "nesting" bug has come back and I can't stop cleaning! But at least I'll be super prepared and the house will be squeaky clean for when she arrives! Better than being caught out being completely unprepared I guess!!
As always love to hear your thoughts, any other mums-to-be twiddling their thumbs waiting for baby to arrive? How have you coped with the heat? Any labour experiences anyone wants to share - induced or not? Either comment below or feel free to message me via the social page! Love x
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