I did it! I am now OFFICIALLY a mummy! And as expected I had absolutely no idea what I was in for or how labour would go!! So here for you all is a breakdown of my ENTIRE labour with Maddison, from the technical stuff down to all my emotions (and boy there was a lot!) So sorry but this is a bit of a long post! Anyway, background story.. I had just had a Stretch and Sweep at the midwife the day before, as mentioned on my Thursday evening blog post (CLICK HERE TO READ - which I actually published while in early labour!!) However she said she couldn't do it properly as I wasn't dilate yet, so my cervix was ripe and soft but not yet open! Anyway it was the next day when it all kicked off.. I was 40 weeks and 5 days..
22/06 - 16:20
After trying a little bit of nipple stimulation, (as advised by midwife to potentially bring on labour) I started getting these mild but constant period cramps, which initially I didn't think anything of as I had been getting the odd on and off period pains for the past 2 weeks and they had gone nowhere further! *SIGH*
22/06 - 18:10
Okay, so after having these constant period cramps for nearly 2 hours I did think something could be going on.. So I done a tiny bit more nipple stimulation but this time with my breast pump. And would you believe it, almost immediately after I'd finished my 10 minutes each side, the constant lingering cramp turned into on and off period cramps! However, I really didn't want to get my hopes up in case it was just me being so desperate to have my baby, but I started to try and time them anyway to see if there was any sort of pattern going on!!
22/06 - 19:30
Oohhhh yes, these cramps were getting stronger and stronger lasting about 1-1:30 minutes and roughly 5 minutes apart!! After calling my mum (several times) to get her opinion, I finally called Josh to say "I think you need to come home as this potentially is the real deal!!" He had been at work teaching evening classes (as Personal Trainers we have long and odd hours!) I really didn't want to make him come home and cancel on people if this was going to be a false alarm!! I still didn't want to believe that this could be the real thing! Mainly because I didn't want to be disappointed but also because I'm not sure what I imagined contractions to feel like, but I didn't think they would feel like this (menstrual cramps or that they would be so low down)!! I made sure that my mum and Josh didn't tell anyone else in the family what was going on.. as again I didn't want to get their hopes up either!!
22/06 - 20:15
So I got the courage to call the hospital and say I think I'm in labour! I feel so lucky that the John Radcliffe hospital in Oxford is SUCH a good hospital and all the midwifes and doctors are so lovely and helpful! Anyway I was told that it sounds like I'm in labour (although I still didn't fully believe it!) and to keep timing my contractions and if they stay as constant as they had been, or get closer together, to come in for an assessment!!
22/06 - 22:00
Ah crap.. my contractions had gone from 5 minutes to 10 minutes apart! That's not the right direction?!?! I kept thinking to myself "I knew this was too good to be true!" So I called the hospital again to let them know, but to my amazement they still asked me to come in to have a look and see whats going on...
23/06 - 00:00
Home, in bed, fed up and upset. Contractions now 10-15 minutes apart and guess what.. cervix STILL not dilate! ARGH! I'M NEVER GOING TO HAVE THIS BABY! (Yes, I was being very dramatic haha!) I was apparently in the "latent phase of labour" (basically very early when you're between 0-3 cm dilate), so got sent off home to bed and advised to try and get some sleep as apparently it wouldn't be much longer now... although I was still very pessimistic at this point and being a bit mopey (sorry Josh!)
23/06 - 6:20
Oh holy s***!! Contractions are fully back up to speed, even more painful and even closer together than originally!! After stupidly going against the advise of sleep, sitting up all night desperately timing my contractions and praying for them to come back properly, I probably got no more than about 20 minutes dose.. Ouch I'm going to be tired! I called up the hospital once again to let them know that my contractions were now 3-4 minute apart and lasting an agonising 2 minutes every time, but that I wanted to try to hold out at home for as long as possible. The last thing I wanted was to get to hospital and be turned away AGAIN if I still wasn't dilate or that I was only 1-2 cm.
23/06 - 8:30
I am in the bath, as I had been for the past nearly 2 hours, topping it up with warm water trying to cope with the pain, which personally I don't feel like it did anything at all.. it just made my feet and hands prune and shrivel up!! Struggling to breathe, and probably having woken everyone up who lives down our road, I got Josh to call up the hospital and say we will now come in as I just couldn't take it any longer!! Although at the same time I was still feeling sick with nerves, constantly going through in the back of my mind of what the worst case scenario would be if I STILL wasn't dilate.. then what the hell would I do?! KILL ME NOW (another overly dramatic moment haha).
23/06 - 9:45
YES! I AM 4 CM DILATE!! So I got admitted straight away there and then, and an anaesthetist was on their way for my epidural (which I had always planned for and known I wanted - phew!!) The relief when the examining midwife said "do you want the good news..."! So it was straight up to a delivery suite room and onto the gas & air in the meantime! In my head, at that moment there I was so ready for this.. it all of a sudden became incredibly real!! My mum had also just arrived at the hospital (perfect timing!), as she was my second birthing partner. Literally don't know what I'd do without my mum!
23/06 - 12:30
Okay so the last few hours, I admit I can't really remember other than it was disgustingly painful!! Basically my first epidural (yes FIRST), didn't work. Unfortunately it had been put in wrong so it wasn't hitting the right nerves, meaning all the drugs being pumped into me weren't doing ANYTHING pain relief wise, just making me feel incredibly sick and also light headed from too much gas & air! Contractions were still strong and still 4 minutes apart.. kind of pleased I can't remember this part, as it was probably the worst part of my labour (which I'm also grateful for as there is a lot worse that could've happened!) So a second anaesthetist, who was also one of the top consultants came and redid my epidural... finally, I could breathe! Once all numbed up, I had a second internal examination and I was now 6 cm dilate!!
23/06 - 20:00
Another BIG time jump, but I don't really feel I need to tell you all how relaxed I was snoozing and chatting away - it's not that interesting but definitely more favourable than killer contractions! What did happen though was I needed to have a catheter put in, as it was impossible to pee on my own by that point. And would you believe (after everything I have/was about to go through) I had a panic attack!! I think it was the "fear of the unknown" and despite not being able to feel my contractions thanks to the epidural, I was still tired having been over 24 hours labour by that point, and I just freaked! Anyway.. By this point I was 9 cm dilate but my waters hadn't popped yet, so the midwives had to do it for me. I was then told to wait 2 more hours (which would hopefully bring me to the magical 10 cm!) and then we could prepare to PUSH!!!
23/06 - 23:30
ITS PUSHING TIME!! Again I had literally just come out of another panic attack and was desperately trying to focus. This time I freaked because due to the amount of drugs in my body I was just shaking/shivering uncontrollably and I also was being sick! The sickness right before the second stage of labour is common, not to do with the epidural but still just as unpleasant! That just caused me to have to worst mental block of 'I can't do this!' The one moment when I wanted to be in TOTAL control of my body and I wasn't due to this shaking and sickness, I just couldn't see how I was going to do it?! Again, there was probably that element of "fear of the unknown" creeping in as well. Thank god for Josh and my mum who knew exactly how to calm me down, I had them each side of me squeezing and holding my hands.. it was time to go!
24/06 - 00:30
I had been pushing for an hour now, and even though I was pumped with Adrenalin and completely focused, I knew I was getting exhausted! I was squeezing Josh and my mums hands less and less to channel every bit of energy I had into pushing down into my pelvis. This was starting to feel like the longest and most emotional day of my life and although I didn't want to admit it, I knew I was starting to flake.. but I kept going the best I could, the midwives said they were really impressed actually! (must be all the old ballet training!) I was sooooo unbelievably close! In the end the midwives decided to call a doctor and assist the last bit of my delivery, mainly because my temperature had rocketed up and Maddison's heart rate had gone really high, just to be safe and speed things along. The doctor used a new type of Ventouse that I hadn't heard of called a 'Kiwi', which apparently is a softer version of a Ventouse! By this point I didn't care what he was using as I just wanted my baby here now! Just a few more pushes!!
24/06 - 1:05
Her head was out so I lent forward and pulled the rest of my baby girl out and popped her straight onto my chest... Oh, My, God, I'D DONE IT!!! My beautiful girl Maddison Grace was here! Those first baby cries are the best and most rewarding sound. It was like music!! Anything after that.. again I couldn't really tell you, I don't remember noticing my placenta being delivered, (other than being told to push once more) and I don't even remember being stitched! Maybe due to the epidural haha, but I was just so absorbed in her, I had Josh's arm around me kissing me and we were both big emotional crying wrecks!! I remember also being ridiculously shocked at how LONG she was! Literally pulling this baby out and her body just kept going and then these long legs came out of nowhere also?! How the bloody hell did that fit in me?!?! She weighed 7lbs 8oz. The best moment of my life was right here. As I was crying with happiness and saying her name over and over again, she tilted her head back and looked right up at me! These gorgeous big deep blue eyes! (Think my heart melted!!!)
So there we have it!! 32 hours and 15 minutes of labour (if you include my first 2 hours of period pain before the contractions officially started!) I am so unbelievably relieved that something hadn't gone wrong so I could get the pain relief I knew I wanted or anything else complicated happened. I have no shame in saying I needed it and I believe my labour experience wouldn't have been anywhere near as calm, special (and dare I say enjoyable?), without it. In fact, I actually turned round and said to everyone in the room that I would do it all again there and then!! I guess you could say I had a backwards labour, as it started off awful, and by the end it was calm, pain free and I'm not mentally scarred for life haha!! I would 100% do it all again in a heartbeat!
I'm a totally open book, so if anyone has more questions or wants more details on anything particular feel free to ask me! Obviously I'm not a midwife or birthing guru but I believe the more we share, we can help one another and quash any fears or worries for mums-to-be!!!
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am absolutely over the moon to be able to say that my little princess is finally here!!
I went into labour last Thursday evening at 40 weeks and 5 days!! Our beautiful girl Maddison Grace was born on Saturday 24th June at 1:05am!! Weighing a healthy 7lbs 8oz!
We are so completely and utterly mesmerised by her and are very much enjoying being in the "Newborn Bubble" discovering and learning each day as first time parents!!
Being a mummy has to be one of the most rewarding and incredible feelings EVER (and she's only been here for 3 days! Imagine me after 3 years haha?!)
Everyone says she's a spitting image of me facially, she's definitely got my squishy button nose!! But her body is ALL Josh! With crazy long arms and legs and body!! She'll probably end up taller than me, which won't be hard as I'm only 5ft2ins!!
I will be writing up a full labour story about my experience to share with you all so stay tuned!! I am so excited to be able to document ans share my journey into motherhood with you all, expect lots of highs, lows and more REAL talk to come!
Maddie, mummy and daddy love you so so much already, we feel so proud to call you ours. You are beautiful and complete us. Forever and always xxx
The waiting game.. This. Is. Tedious!!! Everyday another message from friends or family, "have you had that baby yet?!" No. You'd know if I had haha! Everyday I'm jumping with excitement at any sort of twinge or cramping sensation. Everyday I wake up thinking, today could be the day! To then go to bed thinking... Ah well!
It is hard not to get jealous of seeing people with their babies already. I do so desperately want to meet my little girl!! I think what has made it even harder is the heat wave we've had in the UK for the past 4/5 days! 30+ degrees when you're VERY heavily pregnant is so so hard! It's made me cry, snap, swell, sweat constantly and just flake out on the sofa with my electric fan constantly on my face!! (Wow I bet I've looked such a state - poor Josh ha!!) Other than venturing out to see the midwife yesterday I have literally stayed indoors, with the curtains firmly shut to keep the sun out and every single window open trying to find any sort of breeze to cool me off! (Again, thank god for my fan!)
Speaking of the midwife, yesterday I had the glorious experience of a "Stretch and Sweep". In all honestly, I was expecting it to be a lot worse! I think I'd geared myself up for something a million times more horrifying by reading too much info and forums online that people had written about it! (Note to self: I really should learn not to google so much!) I came away from my appointment completely mixed and torn up emotionally! It was promising, my midwife told me baby girl is fully engaged (as she could feel her head!), my cervix is nice and ripe, but not dilated yet. I've been getting tons of period type cramps on and off throughout the day for maybe the past 4 days now... which is said is a good sign things are 'happening'. So I'm really hoping when I have my next sweep in a few days I'll be further along and it will kick start labour for me - wahoo!! But if not... we do have an induction booked!
Personally, I'm not fussed by the idea of induction. If my body needs a little helping hand to get this baby out (seeing as she's all good to go), then I'll take it! I know all the pros and cons, the potential risks etc. I don't think there's any information out there left that I haven't read!! But unfortunately some of us just need that little helping hand in giving our babies their eviction notice!!! I know some women prefer to wait and let their body go into labour naturally, which is totally fine - I applaud your patience and commitment to doing everything as naturally as possible!! However I'm not one of them!
I had already decided from the day I knew I was pregnant about what I "ideally" wanted in my birth plan. (And I say "ideally" as it's likely my birth plan may have to change, this baba's gonna come however she needs to and unfortunately that's something out of my control!) I knew from day 1 that I wanted an Epidural. Again, yes I know the pros and cons, but I also know what I'm personally like with pain. I suffer with really bad anxiety and panic at certain situations that are out of my control, so having pain relief to keep me and my baby relaxed and as calm as possible and not distressed, is the way forward for me!! Obviously as said above, I may have a labour that moves fast and there simply isn't time for an anaesthetist to loop me up before I have to push! In which case, gas and air (and whatever painkillers I can have) will have to do!! But "ideally" I know I want an epidural and I have no shame in saying that I need pain relief!
I have felt from talking to some people (mainly elder women I might add - Maybe it's a generation thing?), there's a lot of pressure, almost like an expectation, for women to do everything as natural as possible! I don't get why some people have to be so judgemental? Or look down on you like you're a wimp or going to be a bad mother? The same way no women's body is the same, no women's labour experience will be the same?! Everyone copes with situations/pain differently and everyone should be entitled to decide what's best for them and their baby, without the feeling of being pressurised into what another person believes is "best". If someone needs pain relief.. good for you! If someone does it 100% naturally.. good for you! Ladies, I think by now you know your own body so you do whatever is best for YOU!
I guess when the day comes, what is meant to be, will be! It might be that my body naturally goes into labour or I need to be induced. The ONLY thing I care about is that my baby is safe and healthy! And I will do whatever is recommended by the professionals to make sure of it! As tedious and frustrating as it is waiting, it's not like it's never going to happen! One way or another this babies coming hehe! (This is what I need to keep reminding myself when I do see other women with their babies already!) I'm coping much better today as the weather is cooler, so it's more comfortable and easier to stay stay relaxed, as well as trying to be as positive as I possibly can be! Oh, and now my "nesting" bug has come back and I can't stop cleaning! But at least I'll be super prepared and the house will be squeaky clean for when she arrives! Better than being caught out being completely unprepared I guess!!
As always love to hear your thoughts, any other mums-to-be twiddling their thumbs waiting for baby to arrive? How have you coped with the heat? Any labour experiences anyone wants to share - induced or not? Either comment below or feel free to message me via the social page! Love x
Well.. I'm still here, still pregnant. Currently 39 weeks and 5 days so my due date is literally around the corner!! BUT... I am slowly accepting the sad reality that I will probably go past my due date and look back waving it goodbye. Apparently it's only about 5% of women who actually give birth on their due date, with 60% of babies being born within a week either side of the estimated date of delivery, and more than 90% are born two weeks either side of the predicted date. Hmmmm... so the question of when baby girl might make an appearance, WHO THE HELL KNOWS?!
I will admit (and I'm going to sound so desperate right now...) but I've been dying to get this baby out these past few weeks. I have pretty much tried EVERYTHING possible to help get labour going. I've been walking, eating pineapple, eating dates, sex, spicy curries, raspberry leaf tea, nipple stimulation, acupuncture, bouncing on my Swiss ball... if it's out there, I've tried it. I never imagined in my life that I would be so excited to be in pain and feel twinges?! But I am!
I think the most frustrating part is knowing that my baby girl is all good to go (and has been for just over a week now), Both my midwife and GP have said she's fully engaged, my cervix is soft and "ripe" ready to dilate.. so why the bloody hell is she not here yet? What else could she be doing in there?! I then turn and get cross at myself and start blaming my body.. well if she is ready and in position, it must be me! Why isn't my body releasing Oxytocin or trying to contract?! I am a bit of a control freak and perfectionist, I think it's something that has been engraved in me from my years of fighting for perfection when I used to do ballet! So, I know this type of thinking is causing unnecessary stress and anxiety, when it's something that is actually completely out of my control! I can't dictate and 'perfect' when labour will happen or even how it'll happen!
Yesterday, I had my second session of acupuncture, which I had originally gone to desperately hoping in the back of my mind that it would bring on labour. But I actually found it so relaxing and interesting, I definitely wanted to go back again and would like to carry on with some sessions post-baby! She pretty much told me what I already knew (but probably just needed to hear it from a professional..) I just need to RELAX. I need to learn to let go, breathe and chill! All this unnecessary stress and overthinking about when my baby will come is definitely consuming my life. It's even disturbing my sleep, which I know I need now ready for when baby is here! I'm already going through nights of broken sleep from being uncomfortable and needing to pee every hour. So along with a brain that won't switch off, I waking up more tired than I was when I went to bed! I'm more than likely counteracting what my body is trying to do right now.. I need to find "my happy place".
It is hard. When I've waited for basically 40 weeks now, I just want to have our baby here! It's a cocktail of emotions.. excitement, frustration, exhaustion, nerves, anticipation, the list goes on! Relaxation..? Doesn't happen quite as easily! But knowing that "taking a chill pill" could be my answer to giving birth... yes, I will learn to let go! None of these desperate old wives tales or what to eat or drink seem to be working, so I need to let my happy hormones take over and just enjoy these last few days with Josh! (...God, its so much easier said than done!)
So... how to find my happy place? First off I'm trying to focus my mind on anything other than labour, getting lost in a good film or documentary, a bit of cheeky online shopping etc.. And if I do think of my baby, trying think of happy and positive thoughts of HOW amazing it will be getting to hold and kiss her, NOT trying to think of WHEN will she be here! Breathing techniques are really helping me relax too. As soon as I'm noticing I'm holding unnecessary tension in my muscles, I take a moment to chill on my bed or on the Swiss ball, and just feel all my muscles melting and releasing any tension away. I've also found that getting out and having some fresh air is really simple yet effective for me. I know if I'm cooped up for too long my head starts going round and round in circles and I feel trapped. So getting out for a walk, having that change of scenery and stretching my legs definitely boosts my mood!
I feel it's particularly hard for first time mums to try and relax, when we have no idea what a contraction, or waters breaking feels like? Any tiny little niggle or twinge can send your heart racing with excitement, adrenaline and questions!! Everyone I've spoken to says you'll know when it is a 'real' contraction, but that's still not 100% reassuring! The amount of false alarms we must end up going through! But also other signs are bodies are preparing for labour like loose bowels? Is it realllyyy a sign labour is on the way... or did I just overdo it on the hot curry last night?!
ANYWAY. No more speculations allowed for me. I need to stop putting pressure on myself and just trust my body will do what it is meant to do.. after all, I've got this far with no problems!! Let it release Oxytocin when it is ready, and baby will show her face when she is ready! Worst case scenario I will have to be induced, which I don't mind so much in all honesty, it's the waiting part that I'm not very good at! (If you hadn't guess already.. I'm very impatient!) So for these last few days.. you will find me trying to chill in "my happy place".
Any more ideas of how to relax or help your body go into labour I'd love to hear from you other mummies!! Thanks for reading and any comments either leave below or message me via the social page! x
39 weeks TODAY. Wow. We are nearly there. As much as I've been moaning about how slowly this last part of pregnancy has been going, (which I do truly apologise to my friends and family for, I've been moaning a lot!!!) it is quite surreal to think I'm in my 39th week out of 40! Where did it go?!
Looking back from when I first found out I was pregnant to now, I do feel like on the whole I've had a pretty darn good pregnancy journey. Even though I've had low moments, they've been no where near as bad as I expected! However saying that, at the same time I don't think I really knew what to expect.. you read about all the changes physically and hormonally that happen to you during pregnancy, but there's nothing that can quite prepare you for what your body is about to go through! And even then, it's totally different for every women!
I thought back through every stage of the last 40 weeks, and picked out my highs and my lows of my pregnancy. (Obviously this is MY personal highs and lows, and it won't go for every women out there!) this is an insight into my journey and what I have experienced...
My 5 pregnancy lows
My 5 pregnancy highs
I am amazed at my body. And proud in a way. At the fact I have carried and grown a human being, just mind-blowingly wow! Especially for me personally, after some tough illnesses and struggles my body has had to go through in my life.. I had no idea how my body would cope being pregnant. I guess the fact that I'm young, fit, healthy my body is in its prime for reproduction! That's partly why Josh and I wanted children now, while our bodies are perfect baby producing machines! We didn't want to wait till we were 30+ and luckily we are in a career where we don't need to wait for us to 'work our way up the ladder'. Having a family was our priority, and I am proud my little body has made it this far without any serious problems or complications.
Yes, 100% I would love to be pregnant again. There are tough times, but it is so so worth it, and when the time is right, I know I would do it again in a heartbeat! Now little madam... When are you going to make an appearance into the world?! We can't wait to meet you!
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It's official. I've gone mad. Well that's what it feels like anyway! I'd always heard that in the last few weeks of pregnancy, you can get really REALLY vivid dreams, and now I can say I've joined that club. It's those sort of dreams where you wake up, and genuinely have to lie in bed for around 10 minutes contemplating HOW was that just a dream because it felt so real and also WHAT on earth could've caused you to have such a dream?!
I think the best one (as in most ludicrous), dream I have had happen last week. SO... I was in hospital, and for whatever reason I was having to have an emergency c-section. For a start, my doctor was Pablo Escobar (WTF!) and my hospital bed was an ironing board... Dr Escobar then told me he had to operate quickly as the drugs numbing me would wear off and I would feel him operating! Which made me really upset as for some reason Josh hadn't yet arrived at the hospital. So despite wanting to wait for Josh, I let him begin operating and I dreamt I literally felt him cutting me open!! So gross! Then he not only pulled out a baby boy (when we are expecting a girl), but the baby was already around 6 months old and could sit up on his own, I just burst into tears thinking I missed out on having a newborn and just screamed “that's not my baby!!” Then I woke up...
Told you I've gone mad.
Another dream (which was slightly less unusual and complicated) that I had was that my waters had broken and that the bed was soaking wet! Again, woke up genuinely thinking it had been real!!
Last night, a seriously vivid dream.. I was in an airport waiting lounge (as you do), with my newborn baby, I couldn't see her face or anything though which I have heard some people can imagine! And I was breastfeeding. However, I was getting really upset and frustrated because she would only feed from my Left boob and not my Right.. which meant my Right boob was huge and plump – imagine “glamour model style fake boob”, while my Left boob looked like an unfortunate deflated, wrinkly, drained boob! Again I cried, and literally bolted up awake and just grabbed my boobs, desperate to check they were both still there and symmetrical!! (which obviously they were!)
Understandably, all these dreams are pregnancy/labour related, so it is relevant, and highlighting things that I'm probably nervous or unsure of deep down. But they do make you feel like you've gone loopy! Anyone else having or experienced weird dreams right at the end of their pregnancy?! The technical scientific stuff says, vivid dreams are because of the increase in hormone production, which increases your emotions, anxiety and the way your brain processes information, hence resulting in vivid dreams!
I've never been one to have lots of dreams normally. Well none that I can remember anyway. I'm one of those people that normally goes to sleep, then wakes up, nothing fancy or fun to recall. Right now, with interrupted sleep anyway from my continual need to go to the toilet and receiving brutal kicks in my ribs – thanks baby girl! I'm feeling pretty exhausted as it is, but then to be waking up emotionally drained from all these dreams.. it's starting to take its toll on me and I already feel constantly shattered.. and the babies not even here yet!!
It must be all the anxiety of the unknown being a first time mummy and having no idea what to expect. No matter how much research you do, there is know way of knowing what your waters breaking feels like till it happens and whether it'll be a 'gush' or 'trickle', what is a proper contraction? Was that just a Braxton Hick, or do I just need a number 2!? For me personally as well, the lack of control creates the feeling of real helplessness. Other than the obvious red flags of not smoking or drinking etc. during pregnancy a lot of it is out of my control! I just have to trust my body, what will be will be, and she will make her entrance into the world HOWEVER and WHENEVER she is ready to! I can't force her into the perfect engaged position, I can't force her to arrive on a certain day, I can't control how fast she's growing or how big she'll end up being! I really have to force myself to sit back and just trust nature.. which is so hard for me being a bit of a control freak and perfectionist!!
A lot of these worries are clearly bringing themselves to attention in the form of dreams! I do feel a bit like a mad pregnant lady though, so here's hoping she will hurry up and relieve my brain of going round in circles!! Anyone found any good ways of relaxing and coping with their dreams? I'm going to try and meditate these last few days and see if that sends me off into a more relaxed sleep! As always, feeling free to comment below or contact me via the Social Page!
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