We're nearly there. Nearly made it. 40 days to go... maybe less? Hopefully not more!!! I'm 34 weeks and 2 days pregnant now, and my god does it feel good to be nearly there! It sounds crazy to anyone who hasn't experienced pregnancy yet, but as warned by many other mummy's, these last few weeks reallyyyyyyy are going slowly compared to the first two trimesters. It's a mixture of emotions. Part of me feels so unbelievably excited and eager to just meet our little baby, to hold her for the first time, to see what her face looks like! And part of me is unbelievably eager because I'm so fed up, so tired, so uncomfortable and just cannot wait to be able to belly flop onto my bed again! Just under 6 weeks out of the 40 weeks it takes to grow and develop a human being, sounds like nothing! But I think until you've been in the position of a heavily pregnant women, you just don't understand how 6 weeks still sounds way too long!
I'm intrigued to know whether I'll miss being pregnant? Yes it has its bad moments, but there are so many beautiful and special feelings. I think the biggest change will be having my stomach back to myself again, with the only movement being the grumble of my stomach if I'm seriously hungry. It's become so normal to have kicks and wiggles happening inside of me, and seeing my belly ripple and bulge in various places! As my friends and family know, I have had constant and a vast amount of movement in my pregnancy.. I don't think my baby actually ever rests?! She obviously takes after Josh and I at being super active! But I can imagine it feeling very surreal not having that sensation any more.. can you get separation anxiety from missing having your baby inside your belly?!
As you can see in my bump growth photo at the top of this blog post, my bump dramatically ballooned from 20 weeks – 28 weeks! It's slowed down now (thankfully), but has started to drop down. Which is amazing as I have my ribs back and don't find myself anywhere near as breathless as I used to be! However, it's also a pain as I now have so much extra pressure on my bladder, I feel like I need the loo virtually every hour! I wish there were some type of x-ray vision glasses you could wear to watch and see what position babies in! (Bit futuristic i know ha!) We've been told she feels like she's head down but not yet engaged, so fingers crossed she's behaving and getting ready!
One thing that has been bugging me recently is when people comment on the size of a ladies bump. Every women is different and there is no set size that you should or shouldn't be. Some women have tiny bumps, some have big bumps, some are high, some are low. Partly to do with where the placenta is sitting, but we are all unique and we will all carry differently. I do feel like I've looked about 9 months pregnant for the past 3 months – my bump is very far forward (as my placentas at the back), and is pretty big considering I am only 5'2” and have a petite frame.. But if one more person tells me I look like I'm going to pop I'm either going to cry or loose it! It doesn't help you get any closer to the finish line, it doesn't help your confidence?! Just don't do it okay.
Rant over, I just truly cannot wait to meet our baby. Although we've been told she's a girl, I'm still paranoid she's going to be a boy.. especially now everyone's bought us pink clothes and bits! Josh keeps telling me to stop winding myself up, but I know I'll properly relax after the 36 week scan – just to double check!! But boy or girl, I don't care, I just cannot wait to hold, kiss and cuddle our baby.
I feel ready. Yes, it's going to be a new experience, totally change our lives, I'll probably make mistakes as I go along and discover what works for my baby and her personality, but I do feel ready. I'm ready to be a mummy. I'm ready to become parents. So 40 days to go...
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